Today is a sad day. It has been one month since I lost our second baby. This is also the day I was supposed to go to the Dr. for my first ultrasound since I would have been 9 weeks along in the pregnancy. Jim and I would have gotten to hear the baby’s heart beat and see a blob on the screen. I was so looking forward to being pregnant and having a baby in October.
This is an excerpt from the journal entry I made the day we found about I was pregnant:
“We are really excited about you. Mommy is going to have so much fun feeling you kick and turn around while she chases Jake around the house. I love you and I pray that you are a healthy baby. I cannot wait to meet you in 8 more months.”
I know that the Lord always answers my prayers. Our baby is now living with Jesus. This is my journal entry from the day we found out about our loss:
“I guess He decided that it would be better for you to live with Him. I rest in knowing that you are in perfect hands. There isn’t anyone better to take care of you. I do look forward to the day I can see you and hold you. You will always be mommy’s second baby.”
I know that God is so good. “You will keep him in perfect peace, Whose mind is stayed on You, Because he trusts in You. Isaiah 26:3