It is interesting how the Lord is answers prayers.
I have been praying that I would be more intentional in my training of the boys and really try to teach them. I think one way in which I struggle is by yelling from one end of the house or raising my voice to get their attention. The Lord is quick to convict my heart, as soon as I do it I know that I should have gone to them and looked them in the eyes, spoke the direction so that I knew they understood what I needed for them to do. I can give many excuses as to why , but I think it is best described by saying, this is one of those Romans 7:15 moments,”I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do.” I know that the Lord is working through me, but He has chosen an interesting way of teaching me this week.
I AM LOSING MY VOICE….
I am now forced to walk to them, knell down, look them in the eyes, speak softly and clearly. I must ask myself, “Self, why don’t you do this every time?” God is growing me and everyday I need to remember that I have to decrease self and He must increase.
However, speaking softly is hard when Judd is in the neighbors yard playing and I think he is going to run into the street. I am sure I sounded like a dying cat tonight screaming JJJJUUUUDDDDDDD! either way it got his attention:-)